Well, it’s been 1 FULL week since I landed in Rome. The last week has been beyond my expectations. Over the last 7 days, I have been in Rome, Florence, Siena, Caserta, Santa Maria Capua Vetere and Pelago to name a few places. And they all have been beautiful and very different. I can say, as I sit here tonight in Tuscany, that I feel most at home here, outside of Florence. I can see why so many great writings and so much great art originated here. You can’t help but feel inspired. I have a peace that I can not put into words. Tonight, I had dinner outside on my patio and just to hear the birds and feel the breeze and watch the sunset, well, it brought me back to being a kid. Feeling free and noticing all the things I loved about being outside when I was younger. I guess that is what I loved about training and running a marathon. Running had me outside and I felt free. I really miss those days. More than I realized being at home in Birmingham. There is something about nature that just brings down my blood pressure.
A few people have asked what I am doing here. Truth is, I’m not really sure yet. I know I was called to Italy for something, but I am honestly praying that God directs me and reveals that to me while I am here. I do have a mission trip in Naples next month and I feel a tug towards Hillsong church in Milan, but other than that I feel like, so far, that I just need to be still. And listen. And relax. God has really put on my heart that I have been so focused on things that were/are not as important as I placed them in my life. So I think there is something He is trying to teach me as well. Patience. Trust. Just the gift of slowing down. I lived by a calendar before and I was always planning the next day. The next week. The next month. And that’s been a hard thing to adjust to here. I have zero control of anything really. And as I sit here tonight and watch the sunset, I realize that God has so much more for us than living a stressed out, self absorbed life. And I have also learned that we really need WAY less than we think we do. Having been living out of a suitcase for a week, I have realized a couple of things. He always provides. Example: I had a neighbor where I have been staying the last week that has brought bread and croissants to me- EVERY morning. Never knocked. Just silently left them hanging on my door in a bag. The few groceries I bought at the local store somehow lasted me the entire week. The other thing is that when you feel lonely (and are in a new place), He often brings someone your way. I met a lady named Mila who is a Chemist here and works to make sure food is chemical and pesticide free here in Italy. A complete stranger in a foreign country and she invited to pick me up and drive us to dinner. AND I ACCEPTED. It was a great night and our hour long dinner turned into THREE and she was a gift to me that night. A God wink. And we are going horse back riding next week! I also met a pastor and his wife and got invited to spend Easter with them. And it was nice. God is doing some great things in Italy. I can see it with the young people. So story is, be open to meeting new people. People different than you. That has been a real blessing this past week.
I feel like I could write a book. Seriously. This already has shown me that I can do more than I think I can. I can be brave and try new things. I can be still and be just fine. Before I left Birmingham, I told my daughter that I felt like in some way this move/journey would be healing for me and it may just be proving to be that. I didn’t know I really needed to be healed of anything, but I have cried several times since I got here. Maybe because I can’t believe He picked me to to this. Maybe because growing up the way I did, I never in a MILLION years thought I’d have an opportunity like this. Maybe because I feel like I don’t deserve it. Maybe because I feel I’m not ready. But He has quickly helped me to shut it down! You see, the enemy will fill you with LIES. He will make you second guess everything. But I am choosing to believe in the God’s word. I knew going into this that I would have tough days. And I have. But I will continue to move forward. To cherish each day and to be grateful.
So that’s all I have for today. More to come. I have an epic sunset to watch tonight and that’s taking the next time slot in my current schedule. Thanks for taking the time to read my story. I plan to share a little of my past with you later this week, so stay tuned. Also feel free to check out couragetojump on Instagram. I’ll be posting most of my pictures there!
Hey, everyone! I'm Angie and I hope you enjoy my blog about how and why a single woman in her 40's decided to drop everything she was doing and follow her God sized dream to Italy. I may be scared to death but I am FULL of faith as God gives me the COURAGE TO JUMP!